WARNING: The language in this chapter is pretty bad, there's minor drug references, and some violence...

Chapter 5: Who you really are....

Later that night I got home and my sister and our parents were no where to be found as usual. I placed my hand on the cold metal door handle of the shower and pushed it to the side. I proceeded to get undressed and get in, the warm water was very calming against my skin. I decided to make the water even hotter, all my pain literally melted away, I was sweating by the time I was finished showering. My skin was a little pink and fleshy and tender to the touch, perhaps I had made the water too hot, oh well.

After my shower I went into my room and just laid out on my bed, my bottom sunk into my mattress because it was so soft and plush, it outlined all the curves and straight edges of my body. I just wanted to go to bed, I was too tired to even bother with trying to stay up and after all I would just start thinking about David again. Ugh dammit, there I go again. Not to long after I had rested gently on the bed I drifted of into a beautiful deep sleep.I was so upset we had school tomorrow on a Sunday and it was only 9:00 pm, I had a feeling tomorrow would be a long day. I probably only felt this way because, I was dreading the next time I would have to see David again.

My sleep was interrupted by some noises I could here outside in the backyard. I could feel my blood get warm, it was if my flesh was burning, my heart was pounding hardly in my chest Thump Thump Thump, I could hear my heartbeat in my ears, was I going to pass out? I jumped up from my bed as soon as I could hear voices and ran down the stairs only to be even more freaked out.

Standing right before me in my living room window was a red Camaro.

What the fuck??!?!? I didn't know anyone that owned a Camaro. I began shivering and breathing deeply, the car looked expensive and untouched. "Shit!" I heard someone yell out and could tell the sound was coming from the back. I walked slowly out to the back to meet my fate... Life or death.

To my surprise there stood David and Cris moving about frantically. David looked as if he was dressed up to go to some upscale party where champagne and caviar was served, he had on a gold watch that was reflecting the moonlight off of it in the most beautiful way and I knew it wasn't fake either, I guess those are the rewards you get when your parents have a shitload of cash coming in non stop."Do you think we should dip her in the pool, maybe that will help her regain consciousness?" David said as he had Jessica dangling lifelessly as he was holding her arm and trying to keep her in his hands. 

She looked lifeless and pale even with her bright blush and dark black eye shadow on that seemed to make her eyes look like a black hole out in space just sucking the life out of anything and everything in its path.

Cris looked up to David frantically and in panic, he was pacing around in circles, back and forth, and back and forth. "We can't do that..What the fuck are we gonna do man, we're SOOOO FUCKED right now!" Cris shouted. 

"Jess Jess! It's David, can you speak?" David asked with a world of nervousness in his tone. "Jess if you're fucking with us right now you better cut the shit because, we're about to dunk you into this God damn pool" he added. David was acting as if this was some kind of joke.

I ran out to the back and screamed "What the fuck do you think you're doing to Jessica?!?!" MY body shook from my suddenly loud tone, it was if I was scared of my self. A pulse was vibrating all throughout my arms and legs.

"We were at some party and found her in a room like this..She won't even speak." Cris replied as he was looking at her with a look of disappointment. "She usually doesn't get this fucked up...I don't know what's wrong with her."

David looked towards Jessica as him and Cris were helping her keep balance. "Jess what did you take???" David clearly knew she was on drugs and so did I but I had never seen her as fucked up as this before.

"Don't be fucking stupid take her to a hospital NOW, we can take my parents car,hurry!" I yelled out frantically. We had to go and we haad to go pronto, but the boys were acting as if we had all the time in the world, she was out cold.

"Okay you run in and get the keys to your parents car while me and Cris carry her to the car, I'll take her to the hospital right on the borderline of downtown and uptown, it's like a few miles away but it's a quick drive." David said reassuringly as he was making sure he had a good grip on Jessica. Her feet and legs were pretty much caressing the floor, she was lifeless and beligerant say thing things neither of us could understand. It was ironic because my mother always told me I should be more like her, would she think the same if she saw her now?

We had been driving around in my parents car for what seemed like hours to me and slowly but surely we made it to the hospital and were checked into room 108-c. Jessica was still out cold and resting on the hospital bed. She looked cold and dead but there was no way she could've been dead, was there?

David stood behind me and said "She's gonna be okay,she can handle anything Mel." Did he just call me Mel? Who did he think he was? I couldn't even speak to him, my fear had distorted my mind and made me forget about what happened earlier that night, but I hadn't forgotten. What were the odds that I would see David again tonight..Apparently these odds were very high because, it happened. To top it all off he even said they all were at a party, so I was right with my guesses as to what he was doing after we hung out at the arcade. 

"We don't know if she's okay yet, we don't even know what happened to her. It's hard to get over the feeling that your sister could be dying right in front of you and all you can do is wait and ho- hope th- that she lives." I said lowly , I really didn't want to speak at all I felt like my privacy had been invaded. It was the strangest feeling ever because, me and my sister had never gotten along but strangely enough I felt connected to her right now. It was as if our souls were connected, and a part of me lived inside of her, and if she died tonight part of me would be dead because ultimately part of her had lived within me.

Not too long after a bunch of tests were run on Jessica the doctor came back into the room, Dr.Reve. "Well, it looks like Jessica will be okay, I gave her a sedative to slow down her heart rate,it looks like she had an overdose on Ecstasy." He said dryly.

Ecstasy? Jessica was way too experienced to overdose, there was no way, she KNEW her drugs and how they worked with her body, almost as if she was some sort of scholar. Something just wasn't adding up, 1000 lbs had been lifted off of my shoulders but my skin was still crawling at the thought of my sister overdosing.

"I hate to be the bearer of bad news BUT considering the fact that you're all minors I'm going to have to report this incident to the police, I will need your names." He said in a shameful tone as if he was trying to make us feel guilty.

We all stood somewhat huddled around each other while Dr.Reve walked out of the room to give us a minute.minute. Cris was standing with a blank stare on his face and David was too.  I could feel my life slipping through my fingertips like quicksand and being blown away by the fierce winds of fear and innocence. I had nothing to do with this and now I was going to have deal with the cops, this was so fucked up. I didn't need a record right now I was only 15 for Christ sake. I had good grades and a good reputation I didn't ever think I would find my self in a situation as fucked up as this.

"Someone must've gave her bad drugs I saw her take some from 'you know who',she was dealing at the party tonight that fucking slut is going to pay when we see her." Cris said to David. Who were they talking about? I felt so out of the loop I knew nothing about drugs nor drug dealers but oddly enough something about it was intriguing me even though I despised that kind of behavior. A spark was lit inside of me and I just HAD to know everything about this girl they were talking about and the other pot head losers in our school. Thank God I'm nothing like them.

David decided to pull over the chair that I had been sitting in and take a seat. I was still standing up with my hands behind my head pacing there was no way I was going to down with them. "So what are we gonna do, I can't go down for this shit." I said bitterly. 

"I'm just thinking about what I'm gonna do to show that bitch who she's fucking around with, I'm the last person anyone wants to fuck with." David said so coldly it gave me chills all over, I shivered and trembled. I had never heard him speak that way, I mean shit I knew he was a trouble maker but I didn't know he could be that unforgiving. It was right then and there when David said that, that I knew he was cold blooded and ferocious and capable of anything.

Cris laughed and said "Man snap out of it and chill out right now I know your going to have that slut taken care of but right now I NEED you to get us off the hook you have the connections I don't I'm so FUCKED without you." Cris had a faint smile on his face but he was seriously scared and I could tell.

"Right....I told my dad I would stay out of trouble but, I think I know of a way we can get away with this you guys just stay calm and I'll be right back okay." David said. I couldn't get over how God damn serious David looked as he was wearing an all white crisp and clean outfit and a golden watch that was just glimmering about in the room. David's eyes were still just as beautiful as I had always thought they were but there was an aurora of blackness surrounding him and he was a different guy tonight.

I broke down and fell to my knees as David left the room. I covered my ears, I just couldn't take it anymore I was shaking and cradling myself. "This is all bullshit" I said. What did David think he could possibly do to make the doctor not tell the cops. Was he going to do something bad? I was so done with it all I just wanted to be anywhere but here in this hospital room right now.

"It's obvious you don't know ANYTHING about David, believe me when I say he's got us covered...He's too smart to fuck up and if he does fuck up he'll fix it...He always has and he always will." Cris said as if that would make me feel anymore comfortable about the situation. They were delinquents, the troubled youth I wasn't one of them and I never will be like them. I began shaking more violently on the floor and pulled my knees in tighter to my chest. Fear took over my whole body and cradled me like a new born baby, caressing my cheeks and kissing me.

A pain rose up in my stomach it felt like my heart was beating inside of my stomach. Boom Boom Boom. I could feel my pulse through my stomach I pressed my arm up against my stomach violently as if I was going to make it stop but I knew I couldn't stop it. 

I then pulled myself together and took deep breaths in and out. I was still shaking like crazy with my head in my hands but it wasn't as bad as being on the floor. For some strange reason a little voice in my head was telling me David was going to fix the situation I had no idea how he would but somehow I knew deep within that he would.

Not too long after Dr.Reve came back into our room and said "Well, looks like there was a little misunderstanding, you guys can go, I will be releasing Jessica, you guys are just going to have to monitor her and let her rest but she should be fine since I gave her the sedative. Give it an hour or so, she'll be up in no time have a good night, get home safe, and stay out of trouble you guys." That was it? We were off the hook just like that? Apparently we were because Dr.Reve began giving us release papers and walked out of the room to leave us alone and bring Jessica home.

"Well looks like we can go home and put this bullshit behind us....You guys can stay at my house for the night, I have a guest room in the basement." David said indifferently. Something wasn't right, something just wasn't making sense. David looked as if he was relieved and calm even though he was just pissed off a few minutes ago. I eyed David up and down closely and then it hit me, that fancy gold watch that was hugging his wrist earlier that night was no longer there.

"You see I told you! That's my right hand man right there! Woohoo David!" Cris exclaimed.

I couldn't understand it, would he really give up his watch just to keep us all out of trouble? David was way smarter than that he didn't seem like the type to give away and item with so much value, or was he that type?

Cris and my sister were in David's guestroom, she had started responding. Jessica kissed Cris faintly but she was still very weak and needed all the sleep she could get. It was as if Cris's kiss had given her life.

I had been exploring and snooping around in David's basement and one thing was for sure, his family was filthy fucking rich. The walls were decorated with gold tapestries that were obviously real and even though this might've intrigued most something else had caught my eye and my heart. David's parents had a collection of electric guitars that were lined up ever so neatly. It was funny how something so edgy and punk seemed to fit in with their wealthy and perfect looking house.

I couldn't hold it back my curiousness took over my mind and forced me to pick up the electric guitar. I was only familiar with acoustic guitars and this electric guitar looked so odd with me, a perfectly imperfect girl holding it. My hands graced the strings lightly, it was so much more heavy than an acoustic and felt so unnatural to me. The sound it produced was pretty faint too because it hadn't been hooked up to an amp but it wasn't that bad.

"You know it's not polite to touch things that don't belong to you." David said as he was holding hands together and looking at me with a look of deep integrity.

Where did he come from? And why had he snuck up on me, was I playing that loudly? "Sorry, I was just messing around." I said uneasily, why we he such a God damn asshole?

"Relax! I was just joking Mel, you sounded pretty good...I never knew you played." He said. Was he serious? He didn't even know I played? Of course he didn't considering the fact he didn't even know I existed until like 3 or 4 days ago.

"Oh um yeah...I know a thing or 2 about acoustic guitar but I'm not very familiar with electric guitars...I don't exactly like telling people I play." I said softly. It was something about playing in front of people that just made me fuck up and sound like shit so for the longest time it had been my secret talent pretty much or at least that's what I had been calling it ever since I was 9.

David smiled and said "Well you should play for people more often, you sounded amazing just now and the amp wasn't even plugged in." David was trying to make me feel good about my guitar playing and there was no way in hell that would work. I looked at David for a moment, that was the David I had seen for the past 4 days, the dark and scary David had vanished.

"Yeah..I Guess" I said as I looked around the room and anywhere else but him. He was filthy rich and yet he acted as if he wasn't. Here we were in a room surrounded by gold on the walls and he was acting as if this was normal did he not know what gold was? I started thinking about his watch again and began to say "So..What about the-" He cut me off.

"Oh yeah! The cars! Your parents car and my car....I didn't forget, I'll take you back home and put your parent's car back in the driveway and get my Camaro out of your driveway." He said. It was then that I realized David owner 2 cars the yellow sports car he took me home in earlier today and the Camaro man he was filthy rich. Something was seriously bothering me though....I was really getting pissed off with him cutting me off all the time, I didn't want to talk about the fucking cars I wanted to know about the watch, I guess I guess I will never know.

Me and David were in my parents car, he was speeding and passing red lights and stop signs as if he was invisible to the law. I could feel butterflies in my stomach from the hint of fear I was feeling, David needed to slow down. He was the live fast die young kinda guy, but I knew one thing was for sure, if he got my parents car fucked up..He would get fucked up. David had still been speeding down the road until he looked out the corner of his window at an alleyway that was leading to the hospital we were just in earlier that night, he hit the breaks sharply and I felt my whole body jerk forward but my body was soon constricted from the seat belt holding me in....How the fuck did he get his license?!?!!?

"Why did you stop?" I asked as calmly as possible, I just wanted to get home and out of this car. David was driving so much differently than he had when he took me home earlier today. 

David started breathing heavily and gripping the steering wheel tightly. "Listen and listen closely Mel...DO NOT LEAVE THIS CAR NO MATTER WHAT... I will be back okay... Just PLEASE stay in the car." He said demandingly. Why did he want me to stay in the car? Where the fuck was he going at this time of night? It was 2:00 am I was sitting around waiting in the car for what felt like an eternity, I needed to know where David was and what he was doing. I got out of the car and walked down the street and realized something wasn't right, someone was screaming.

Soon I had walked around and into the alley of where the hospital was and saw the unimaginable. " Oh my God David Stop!" I Yelled. Terror washed over my body like wild ocean waves, I didn't know what to do.

David ignored me and had his fist raised up at Dr.Reve. "That's right you mother fucking piece of shit! Do you want some more Huh?" David was tense and I was so sure he was about to strike his fist at the doctor but instead he said "You're just a pussy that's all you are you're not even worth it." He said coldly. Who was this guy? This wasn't the same David I was looking at an hour ago, why was David so crazy?

"David I said stop! Now stop it!" I yelled at him but of course he didn't listen to me. I was just a ghost at this point, David acted as if I didn't even exist he was in an intense state.

Instead of punching him David put his hands around his neck and grabbed him by the throat. "Gah! Kkk-ahh..PLeas--" Dr.Reve managed to let out. David wasn't giving up.

David looked Dr.Reve straight in the eye with ultimate integrity and said "You're such a fucking pussy, you didn't think I was going to let you take my watch that easily did you? I should end your fucking life right here and now but you're lucky I won't...Just remember my name David Rakenson you little bitch!" David finished talking and kept his tight grip on Dr.Reve's neck tightly until he fell out and layed their unresponsive. David released his grip from Dr.Reve's neck and grabbed my hand and pulled me along as we ran out of the alley and back into my parents car.

I sat in the car not saying a word my heart was racing yet again. What the fuck just happened? David was driving fast again and eventually we reached my house.

"What the fuck was all of that about?!?! YOU fucking speeded with my parents car that they worked hard for and then you just get out of the car and beat the shit out of the doctor that helped us in the hospital!! Are you apeshit?" I yelled... I couldn't hold it hold back my anger, not in this moment. David had done something so brutal and risky right in front of my eyes and he could've gotten us BOTH in trouble.

"Hey, hey calm down.. Look I just wanted to show that guy I have nothing to lose and I wanted him to know I wasn't going to just let him take my watch that easily..He needed to know I wasn't just some kid he could push around." David said as if that justified what he had just done.

"Maybe you don't have anything to lose but some of us do...Some of us actually have to face our problems instead of crying to our mommy and Daddy's and getting money and other shit when shit goes wrong. I'm sorry you don't realize that but you're just a spoiled selfish little bratty rich kid." I said coldly, I could still feel my blood boiling within my like a pot of hot soup and I could feel my pulse within my fingertips.

"You do realize that MY parents money helped you not have a file on your police record right now?" David spat out angrily, it was obvious I had insulted him.

" I don't give a fuck about your money! You're so stupid you don't even think things through, you're just like Jessica, Cris , and all the other kids your hang out with...Chain smoking pothead losers with no regard or care for anyone else but yourself." I replied.

David through his hands up in dismay. "No, no no, I'm not going to sit here and listen to this to shit right now....You don't know shit about me so don't fucking talk about me like you do...I'm sorry Little miss Perfect but you shouldn't judge someone by a few things you see them do and all the shit people say they do.....But of course you wouldn't know anything about that because, your so fucking perfect huh?" David said angrily. I couldn't believe he said that to me, I just wanted to go  and be as far away from his as possible.

David looked around and let out a deep sigh. "Fuck!" He exclaimed. He paced back and forth and looked at me and came closer to me.

David had huddled over me and held my arms just a little below my shoulders.Which made me a little frightened. " Look I'm sorry, I did all of that in front of you, but you just don't understand....I had to...." David whispered softly. I could feel the warmth from his body radiating into the air and it felt nice because it was beginning to rain.

David looked at my face and I guess he could sense my fear because I was shaking within his firm yet gentle grip he had on my arm. "I'm sorry if I'm scaring you...I just want you to know I'm here right now and ....I want you to do something for me..." He said softly.

I didn't respond I just stood there with my hands on his broad and defined chest shaking and trembling. "Please promise me you can forget everything that happened to night...From the arcade to right now...Just forget it all happened and think of me as that David...Please don't speak about what happened tonight to anyone...I never wanted anyone besides my friends to see THIS David..The crazy David...The out of control David...You can't tell anyone....Promise me...Please." David said desperately as he was begging me. I still didn't say anything to him. I couldn't make a promise I didn't think I could keep, I mean how was I going to act like this never happened? With everything I had seen tonight I had so many questions in my mind. Was this the real David and did he just not want anyone to know? Through all of my uncertainty the biggest question I was asking my self was if David was a real wild careless teen that got away with everything because, his parents were rich or if he was really a nice guy that was the star quarterback of our football team? Who was DAVID RAKENSON?